It has been a wonderful ride, but it isn't where my heart is at this point in time. I have coordinated and helped on the Love to Learn Conference for 10 years, and I have spoken at a couple as well. But now I am moving forward. I have handed over all of the yahoo groups I started, or took over, to someone else. I have left all the homeschool lists, pages and groups.
I do still want my boys to see an active and involved mom, involved in something greater than myself. So I am testing out the water. It is so different. I mean I know the homeschool general statutes, backward and forwards. I have an eye to look for key words in the legislative calendars and committees. I know how to advocate for homeschoolers and encourage homeschoolers to advocate for themselves. So changing directions has me a little bit nervous and excited at the same time. I know who to talk to when standing up for the rights of homeschoolers. I don't know all the politics of other organizations.
I am figuring out what interests me, and looking at it all, because I know that my interests are many, but I can be more effective if I don't spread myself thin. In this journey I want to maintain my "me" time. That time I dedicate to enriching my life, personal growth, exercise, meditation and the like. I never want to give up my family time, that time is so meaningful and energizing for me. And I want to find something that hits me personally. I feel I can move forward more easily if I can relate in some way. Does that make sense at all. I don't know if any of you have gone through this. I am sure you have, made a big change in your life, how you move through this world. Like I said it is exciting and a little overwhelming at the moment. I am going to do more reading and follow the words of Lao Tzu:
“Do you have the patience to wait
Till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
Till the right action arises by itself?”
I have that patience, I know the right action will arise.